send me on my way

it's cold, and the cold would be so much more bearable if it wasn't so harsh. I step outside and my face is blasted and stung by the bitter wind. How can I make these two wander out into the angry weather, if not even I can force myself to do so? So alas, we are staying inside on this bright Monday morning. Perhaps this afternoon we will brave the cold - and venture to somewhere with some mystery and excitement. I get bored between these four walls, so I can only imagine how it must feel for Em & Soph (t1 and t2 - forgot about that!) Emma has been so very emotional the last couple of days. Not her usual angry self either, but the sweet sensitive Emma I remember before her world came crashing down. I truly believe she is starting to find peace, and is accepting our "new" family instead of holding on to old memories. Her comfort with Tim and his relationship with all of us grows by the day - and she is now on a kick of asking "when can Tim come live with us mum?". One day at a time, is all we can do - and slow and steady is all we can ask for. Sophie knows nothing but the four of us though. She wakes up asking for Dad... she goes to sleep asking for Dad... and everywhere in between, she wanders around searching for him. When he's home though? Mum only. Kids are funny like that - they always want whats not accessible at that moment.. I suppose that rings true for most of us though. For now, we will wait patiently until we can all live together as the family we now are. And in the mean time, planning, planning and MORE planning. Happy Monday.