she's been a real good girl, but now she's stuck here

Ive got a lot to do, and Ive got a lot of time to do it. I am young, and naive - I am old, and wise. It's all perspective, sort of like - whether the glass is half full or half empty. My mind is restless though, and I feel like I need distractions. I did buy some canvas and paints today - and it was very inspiring to have them in my possession. I can just imagine what I can create - and its very exciting for me. I so very rarely spend money on myself, and treat my creativity. I'm on a kick of wanting to make everything for the wedding too ... "I'll just find a pattern, and make my own dress" or, "I'm not paying someone else to do my invitations and favors, I'll do it myself!" Little do I seem to realize (since "dreamer" Katie seems to be taking the helms of wedding planning...) that I already have a full time job, with another one scheduled to start in September - plus planning a shag & wedding. See? This is why I start "stressing" so early - there really is a lot to do. Life is already busy.. it's a whirlwind, in fact. I would just like to put on some loud music, close my eyes, and dance around without a care... because in the end, we all die anyways. I've only got one life to live - let's live it to the fullest. *smiles* it can always be turned around, you just have to cock your head a bit to the left!