The fog has taken over, and we're both helplessly laying on the ground.. waiting for it to pass. It's exhausting - every single aspect of being a parent, is exhausting. Whether it be emotionally, physically or mentally.. I am always left feeling "woah". Now it's his turn, to feel it too. It's a sink or swim situation, because it really doesn't even get *easier* it just changes, and some stages are easier to take on than others. I reached a point yesterday, that left me with no choice but to just look at myself honestly, and start doing the reno's. I have come so far, and changed so much - but there are still so many aspects of myself that have been left in shambles, awaiting my TLC. I think every mother should be allowed a 5 day period, alone, to take in everything. To sit back and regroup - explore the inner working, and just touch base. Instead, we find ways to drag out the process every single day of our lives... and solve one little problem at a time. Multi-task the emotions, and learn to live without the touching of home base.
"Just show me a moment that is mine
it's beauty blinding and unsurpassed.
make me forget every moment that went by
and left me so half hearted -
because I felt it so half-assed"
Half Assed - Ani Difranco
I know we'll find our way, we're both too stubborn to give up anyways. We both are just in dire need of some quiet. Sweet dreams xo
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