the caring

to understand what you are going through as an individual, you must first try and understand how you got there. every event plays a part in the place you have come too, and you must find it within yourself to be open to the demons that come. there is no fault in trying to be a better person. and when the walls come down, and you are naked and broken on the floor - all of your errors will be highlighted, your demons will fly free and your tears will flow. but nothing new can come from a broken heart, so you first must feel out who you are. there is no chance of a better future without a better person to start from. caring is something that is second nature to me - and not a moment goes by in my day that I don't think about somebody else. I care more for others then I care for myself, and that's one of our biggest problems. I put you, and everyone else before me ... so how am I to be the best for anyone, if I'm last? The damage that has been done is so big, so irreparable.. and nothing is ever guaranteed. all we can do is try and if you've decided you quit, I can't change your mind. I am always going to try and be better, always try and be happier - and I'm never going to settle for less than I deserve again. If that means that I don't care about you, in your mind, then I hope you find someone who accepts that.