and all of the moments that have past we will try and go back to make them last

I've haven't had to walk on my own two feet in a very long time. I've so easily taken the hands which guided me through and let me have it easy. When I recently told someone that I haven't had a "real" job in over 4 years, they were in disbelief... how did I manage that? On one hand, I am really good with money - on the other? someone has always picked up the slack for me. Maybe that's where I've went wrong - believing that someone else would always help me through. It's time now to find my way, without someone leading it for me. It's time to stand up, and create my own journey - find a new independence that I have always so easily surrender to someone more willing to take on the task. Where has that left me, though? In a spot I never wanted to be - because I let someone else direct me here. You will probably sit there thinking, that's it then - this is done. I only see it as just beginning. Putting the past away, and starting over. Admit to the failure - we failed. We tried (whether it was our best or not, remains to be said) and it just wasn't enough. All we can do is try again. Leave the path we came from, and start off in a different direction. There's no use crying, it won't change our fate - it's time to get up and make a fucking difference.