your loves the warmest place the sun ever shines

My belly is bounding, my breasts are swollen, my feet are sore and my mind is tired. Sharing my body with another heart, another breath, another life. The presence of life, a constant reminder of what is and what is to come. I lay awake with him (call it wishful thinking...) as he moves about, let's me know he is there, he is coming. There is not a moment that passes that is my own, that I do not share with another life. Here we lay, as one - breathing in and out, heartbeats pounding together. The anticipation for the changes he will bring us is so great and so powerful, it brings me to tears. He brings a smile to your face I've never seen come across those beautiful lips of yours - I hope he has your lips. It feels like such a mystery to me, like I've not done this before. It feels new, and intrigues me in ways I don't know how to explain. And I suppose, in some ways I haven't ever done this before - for I have never made a life with you. I've never been pregnant with a third child, and I've certainly never anxiously anticipated a life so greatly as this. I am still learning, and there is much left to the journey. I yearn for a greater understanding of who I am, who you are - who we make together. So much time to know, to learn and understand. I am only now understanding what making a human life out of love is really like. That's something else that I've never done. So here's to the life we have not yet entered - to a life we will live for the rest of our lives.