lost

The leaves are changing color, and it's only getting colder.

I feel like we missed something, skipped out on something important. I am haunted by broken plans, childish dreams, hopeful new love. I can't say I'm not to blame for that, can't say anyone is to blame though either. Life get's in the way of our plans, robs us of time, and holds our dreams captive. It doesn't stop me from wanting to fly, go somewhere no one can find us and start something new. Wanting, wishing, waiting. Wasted time.

I gave away my innocence, gave away my sanity - and stood there feeling helpless and stupid. It's taken me a long time to be comfortable with the choices I have made - the path I have taken - the life I have created. It's taken a long time to accept that I am not alone in this, that everything will be okay. It's taken a long time for me to understand that everything takes time.

But it's getting cold, and I feel like we lost something along the way