11.28.2012
not all those who wander....
the separation of head and heart. it's been a battle my whole life, i realize now. Ive never let the two coincide... never have I had the ability to let down my walls enough for them to meet. constantly waging wars on myself - and somehow, after everything... I am still worried what other people will think of what I do. Why have I ever been under a microscope? have I really made so many bad decisions that nobody trusts me to make the right one anymore? when did I give up the right to make that call? What does it say about me, when I am constantly worried about being abandoned? I am so worried, all of the time - what will be said, what will be judged ... I don't even give myself time to figure out what I want, or what's best for all of us. I let others opinions guide my choices. when did I get so lost....
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ReplyDeleteThere will always be people who judge you for your decisions. There will always be people tho judge the things that you do. Unfortunately, with certain people which surround you, you may be "under the microscope" a tad more than most people, but I assure you that we are all under that microscope. Do not let what others think or feel control you, make decisions for yourself - not for those around you. They are just noise.
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