wake me up when December ends?

Is Christmas really only 5 sleeps away? How did I miss the whole first half of December? I'm not ready, Santa's presents have not been wrapped, stockings aren't even in my possession at the moment! It has been such a struggle to make simple events happen - but I thought Christmas would be different. Nope, here I am again - struggling. It's like I've lost concept of time, I keep missing "deadlines" and forgetting important dates. I feel like it's excusable, but only to a certain point. When am I going to stop blaming these struggles on our upheavel - and take blame for my own actions. I'm a big girl, I can handle my own ... so why can't I make something as simple as Christmas an enjoyable process? I'm amazed the tree is up and decorated - although that was by no force of my own, so I can't take credit for that either. It does not help my cause that I have found myself in love with the grinch. Now it really is all my responsibility to make this happen - and it never *really* has been before. I guess I would just like to go to sleep, and wake up on the 27th when it's all been said and done. Won't happen, stop dreaming - get yout shit together Katie. Okay, shit together - so now what? Shopping. buy buy buy... spend spend spend... like a turkey with it's head cut off, just watch - I'll have a break down at some point this week. Yet another thing that is aweome about bed time = break downs can commence! Alas, I will put on the red and white hat - eat the cookies that Emma keeps out for me, put the presents under the tree, and wake up with a smile on the morning of the 25th. Now how to break it to everyone that we are bailing on Christmas dinner... *sigh* They say if it's easy, it's not worth it - but sometimes, I have a hard time believing that. Happy Sunday!