no better time then the present

I search for an answer, some clear cut decision. I've not yet trained my heart to know that it is never clear-cut. So I subconsciously wander around... hoping for something to point me in the "right" direction. I ponder, and wonder, and hope for something that will guide me out of the darkness that I seem to be wading through. I can't help but question how after all this time, after all the different paths I've taken, I have not learned the art of patience. All I've got is time, and every day is a new chance to do something with it. Shift out of reverse, and get on with it... there's nothing stopping me, but me.