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8.29.2010

just show me a moment that is mine

I'm like a fly bouncing back and forth on the window pane, trying to escape. No matter how many times I bash my skull into the glass, I don't give up - my determination to get through the glass is too thick to use reason. Call me stubborn if you want, I call it committed. The problem is, eventually I have to give up and find an alternate route - or hope someone is kind enough to open the glass for me so I can get through. Hoping get's me nowhere though, and so eventually I have to resign my skull-bashing and accept that I have to fly around a bit longer to find my way through. My problem is I abandon the purpose of getting through the glass in the first place and find a replacement scenario. The issues that were presented in the beginning with me trying to get through the glass are left in the back of my now-bashed-in brain, and I move on to some other problem. It's a problem of course until I find another window - start bashing again and remember "hey! I just ran into this same problem not too long ago!" Dealing with things as they come is easier said than done for me, especially if it's only me doing the bashing and everyone else is standing on the other side of the window - watching, waiting for me to figure it out. I wonder if it would just be easier for someone to help me along, open up the window... but leave the screen. That way, I can get a taste of resolution - but am still forced to work through it without giving up. Give me a taste of the end, so I can be motivated to not give up on finding compromise.

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