I could really use a wish right now

I can't stand under the pressure, I can feel my knee's buckle and my heart is sore. I wish I could understand the yearning that takes over me when we're apart. Maybe if I could understand, I could get a grip hold on the emotions that take over my rational knowing. I fall asleep sadly, and wake up in the same mannor - and I know this is too long. I'll blame it on the hormone's for now, as it's all I've got. I dream about you too - which is really the icing on the cake. Not only can I not escape your lingering presence during the day - but you follow me into sleep as well and haunt me while I "rest". You'd think it had been week's at this point, even months - but no, just merely 5 day and I am uncontrollably weeping speratically throughout the day. This is proving to be very difficult as I try very hard not to weep infront of the girls - however, Emma is very understanding of how much I miss you. She found me yesterday, and hugged me and said "I miss Daddy a lot too - but it's okay, we're going to see him soon!" Alas, it is a temporary relif - and I will do my best to concentrate on all the good thing's that every day brings for us until we come home again. I do apologize, to anyone who follows my ramblings - but the next week and a half are likely to all be the same posts :)