what have I become, my sweetest friend?

I feel like I am tiptoeing around my own battle field sometimes. Doing back flips and acrobats to make sure not to set off any bombs embedded in the dirt. It take's a lot of practice to keep your anger under control when all you've known is letting it fly with fury. When I slip, it is a miserable affair and everything around me blows up in front of my eyes. Most of the time, I just stand in the middle - let the rage do it's work and watch helplessly. I am, with effort and time, getting better at keeping a cool head. It's amazing how much life will teach you with time, how much more you know now then you did last week, month, year... one big lesson. I live, and I learn from it. I love with my whole heart, and I laugh with my belly. You won't get out alive anyways, so why bother being miserable all the time? Smile, and appreciate the small things around you. Cry when you need to cry. Scream when you need to scream. There is no social norm anymore - we are slowly learning it's *just* life! Why live at all if your not REALLY living? Go out, do something new... or something old. Just do something! Turn off the computer screen, shut off the TV - avoid the magazines and the radio... turn off your media-centered mind, and breath in the air outside. Walk on the grass barefoot, and dive into the water naked. or, smell the roses :) happy Thursday people!