I can get so stuck in something that I didn't even have a part in, and let it consume me. I will follow a road that was not meant for me, and inspect every stone, every crack in the pavement, follow every curve and bend. I wonder if it does more destruction then the reinforcement I am actually searching for. Sometimes knowing is important though, after all - we all want the truth? So the search is not necessarily a bad thing, I am looking for truth... it's just the truth I go looking for sometimes isn't necessarily a commodity for me to have. I feel like Hariet the spy - I want to know everything. I'm so eager to learn, to understand, to be a part... I wonder if sometimes it blinds me from seeing what's already sitting in front of me waiting to be explored. I spend so much time and energy worrying and stressing and feeling anxious, that I think I forget what the point is. On the other hand I spend so much time doing things for other people, that I tend to forget about me and I end up feeling resentful. I just feel like I loose sight so easily, and its really starting to take a toll on me. I need to refocus and rejuvenate - get back to my roots and start looking in front of me, instead of behind me.
"when I look up, I miss all the good stuff...
and when I look down, I just trip over things"
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