give me hope in the darkness

Dear Me, Strength has always been the one thing you believed you had none of. You are wrong. Look at where you've gone, from where you have come. Despite the odds, you have defeated the barriers placed in front of you and alone, have conquered most. Stop beating yourself up about the people who have let you down, they have only reinforced that you are strong enough to get back up. Some days, it will feel like all the cards are stacked against you. Some days, they will be. One day in the grand scheme of things is hardly but a pebble on the beach. Keep going, this too shall pass. When you feel like giving up, and that you'd do anything for a lent hand - turn to those who have always dropped everything for you and yours. Stop looking in dark corners for light, you will only find disappointment. Accept the things (and people) you cannot change, and look to the horizon. There is always something coming, always a new day. You are not useless. You are not stupid, or pathetic. You are not defined by the choices you have made in the past, but merely they have shaped your judgment for the future. Forgive yourself, for everyone makes mistakes. It is normal to slip up, to take steps back and do the same things over again. It's hard, and you are forgiven for giving in to temptation. Don't let the weight of broken promises, hurtful names and power struggle bring you to your knees. You can not change anyone else's mind, all you can do is keep being yourself. Stay true to the morals you hold, and be honest and forgiving. The people who matter, don't mind. And the people who mind, don't matter. You are doing okay. Keep going. It's lonely, and it's hard : but it will level out, and you will have a new found pride in how strong you really are. Love always, You.