too dumb. don't think. not listening. don't understand.
whichever way I turn, whichever way I go with it - it's wrong. I don't know how I ever doubted where the suffocating anxiety was coming from - or the constant insecurity.
there's a 6 year old Katie, who lives within me - and currently, she has taken full control and left no residency for anyone else. and how can I not grant it to her? how can I tell her to go when she is called back constantly to defend her territory? I think it's only proper to let her find some solace, instead of traveling back and forth between persona's with not a moment's rest.
Surely, I sound crazy. I suppose by now, I must be.
Is your blog going to be your main communication platform in the future?
ReplyDeleteI wondered more than once whether these moments in which we leave the child within us take control are not actually beneficial. I think that they remind us of what is essential to our core and function as an alarm signal to show us that we are not satisfied with the current situation.
It probably is just a phase, the hormones, the courageous Katie being overwhelmed, for once. Don't worry.
It very well might become that Carmen - I am still exploring. I am giving in only temporarily - for my mind is overwhelmed and my feet aren't so steady. This will change, and pass - as it always does. I'm not worried :) but smiling at your interest in my mind <3
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