what've you been searching for?

My head is full to the brim of ideas and emotions - but I am still chasing after a place where it can be exposed. I am still wandering around waiting for a room to appear that I can sit, where I am conscious but confident - able to let it free fall out of my mouth and into your lap. I'm getting closer, I can feel it in my bones. You've been so patient, you've been so tired - it's been a long time. The weight of the world on our shoulders, the weight of our choices that follow - it's a lot to carry, it's a lot to hold on to. But it's alright, it feels okay - and somewhere beyond the fog that leaves us blinded to what is in front of us... I know there is a light of some kind. You keep me balanced, and let me explore the uncertainty - even when it is like nails scratching ruthlessly against a chalk board. It's not always easy - it's not always fun... but it is ours, it is strong and will hold. I will never give up on what is true, I will never turn my back on the long road. Hold my hand, kiss my lips, lay with me on cold nights, smile when I'm crying, be honest, tell it to me straight even if it will bring tears, be kind to the insecurities, be strong when I can't be - and in return, I will do the same for you. I know it's not always easy, I know it's not always fair - but together I think we have the ability to move mountains... and at the very least, take down those walls.