so many people to love in my life, so why do I worry about one?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVXFP89EeqU

Some times it doesn't matter what you say, or how you feel - it can't be changed. Accepting that this is out of my hands is hard to bare, but it's all I can do to prevent the self destruction. I wish for better, I hope for happier days... optimism was never a strong suit for me. I pack my bags and I put out the last of the embers still rumbling, aching to catch fire. I was never good at loving myself, but it's about time I learned how.