don't take it so personally

Words aren't as organic when I've drained myself to being nearly translucent. Time spent getting back to the person I was before I lost myself has been a trying feat. I didn't realize we had parted ways so far back... thankfully the terrain is forgiving, and I've walked the path so frequently that it's second nature and I don't stray. Determined to be true to who you first met, I put in the time. It's such a privilege to have time, to ease into the days best I can and feel everything so honestly. With this, I have learned a new patience with myself... and I am able to keep my intensity in perspective. I am learning to delegate my fierce disposition to appropriate tasks and conversations. June is both a beautiful and treacherous time in the year for me. Beauty and pain, joy and fear. I won't waste any more time trying to change what is not to be touched - but rather, by living presently I am learning that what will move my soul are the moments that are happening right now, the ones I am in. And through it all, you love me anyways - and I know now, that the greatest gift I could have is loving you back. Good things are on the horizon, and oh god have we earned it. Nothing is standing in our way... and I couldn't be more ready, and for that I know the work devoted to building this foundation is paying off. You get back what you put in - now we reap the joys of the seeds we've sowed. Don't forget to breathe.