words would go, and then I'd just be sitting there on your floor; loving everything I see and no way to tell you what to look for

It's always when deadlines are looming that I find myself here. I'll call it self care and carry on. Whose to say I won't find my inspiration in the words that flow freely. Lately I've been feeling as though we are stuck on FF and life is an old VCR and I can't get the button unstuck. It's all going so very fast, and I'm so very tired - and all I really want is a time enough to appreciate the moments as they are happening in front of me. Forever trying to be mindful that they are not happening TO me, but rather that I am playing a very important role in all of them. And I am starting to accept that choice plays a big role in how the day to day is experienced by all of us. Seven bodies, seven personalities, seven opinions - all at the same time, I'm finally forgiving myself for feeling overwhelmed. It's been a journey, to be sure - one that we will continue to course through. We will fall, and get back up. We will fail, and learn from the mistakes. We will laugh a lot, and cry hard. There will be no shortage of overwhelming emotions. Fast tracking or not, it is a very beautiful life we are living. The fear is mostly gone, and when it does arise, it often goes as quickly as it came. I'm learning, always learning, of the ways in which my heart and soul can be inspired. Learning how to forgive myself, despite how quickly I distribute my forgiveness to others. For now, I'm going to give the VCR a kick and see if I can't get that button unstuck.