I know one thing

Sometimes, when I think I've finally got a grasp on things, it all comes apart and I can't help but laugh. What do I honestly expect? I had the pleasure of meeting some new friends who knew nothing of me or my past or my present. The pleasure came in having a fresh perspective.. a complete virgin to Katie Watson. My most favorited reaction was "you've taken more than your fair share" ... but say's who, I asked. Me and fair never got on, anyhow. So let it be a lesson that when I seem to be on the right track, the derailment will happen momentarily. Expectations will leave you endlessly disappointed - but I assure you if you hold me to no standard, I may entertain... or perhaps even bring out a smile or two. I tried so fucking hard, it hurt. And nontheless, the wheels buggered up and lost their spot and now I`m sitting on the side of the line with a smoke and a strong drink of whiskey saying "well what the fuck did you expect?" I know one thing, and I know it so well - and even if it kills me, I stay loyal to it.