Now I'm feelin different.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lm2n-zm7zQg

This wall

Do you see this wall? It didn't come up overnight. It was built grudgingly after too many anxiety attacks caused for no reason other than to prove a point. It was inspired by the broken heart left in the puddle over and over. It has my blood and sweat and tears worked into every brick, layer after layer. Do you see this wall? It didn't come up in a day. It took me years of pain and anger and hurt and frustration, it took courage. This wall wasn't put in place to keep people out, it was built to protect the four of us. It was built to make sure the war stayed on the other side, and we could recoup over here. It was never meant to cause anger, never meant to cause harm. This wall, though tall and strong, was put in place to be breached. I built a door, somewhere along the wall. Be warned that the door is locked, but that genuine kindness alongside trust and honesty is the key. This wall did not come up in a week, for it has taken me years to build, I took breaks along the way. Breaks where I let others join me on this side, only to be burned. Be warned this wall is strong and tall, but it wasn't meant to stand in place forever.

and I'm gonna leave this town

A lot can be said for a blast of hatred. It puts confused emotions into perspective, and reminds you that you are standing on your own two feet... no help. I don't know if it's a good thing that I am always forgiving.. but at least when I get burned after trying to make peace, I am self-aware enough to walk away. Sometimes, there's really nothing left but the end. Sometimes, you really just have to let it lie. Famous last words, that I keep having to remind myself of. Keep going, one foot infront of the other... don't let it bring you down.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=En6iNoyqI_E