whose to say.

there is no end in sight. it's just a long, long road and u-turns are prohibited. so keep moving, keep watching and walking and running and singing and thinking. keep your mind open and roll with it. and we will all come for the journey - and we will all learn something from it, it will teach us all. maybe it will harden us, or maybe it will make us weak in the knees. whose to say? i just know one thing is for certain... it's inevitable, the journey. you can not stop time, for it will continue on with out you and keep going long after you have fallen behind. and so you must roll, or it will suck you in and spit you out. and whose to say it isn't for the best? whose to say. i only hope that we keep our eyes open and know when to keep our mouths shut. know when to roll and when to run. know how to stop and when to say thank you, and sorry. i can only do so much before i am unrelenting. and i hope that it is all worth it once it's eventually over. for every beginning must come to some beginnings end. and then a new chapter will begin, and the process will inevitably start again. but whose to say, it isn't only just beginning?

i know but one freedom, and that is the freedom of the mind.

the work of deceiving yourself is that of such tactic and skill that I am surprised so many of us futile human beings can pull it off. the spins and twirls and flips you must perform, it really should be classified as an art form. and yet, despite the grueling process of learning how to do it with skill, we continue on to deceive. it get's to the point where we even believe our own bullshit - and really, if we're not even on our own team.. who will be? so on goes the dance of deceit and the sad reality that our own bullshit is believable to us... so when do we stop? when does it become too hard to keep up with, too much strain on our sanity? I suppose we'd have to stop just the same way we started, but reversed. because I've learned that the truth is even harder to accept, for most. who want's to hear that it's all bullshit? we are pre-programmed (via society, our peers, the media..) to 'see no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil.' and if we're being frank - that's the point, right? it's all too fucking hard to hear. and so in the end, it's a choice - you can go on deceiving yourself, and believing your own bullshit... or you can wake the fuck up, and start living. your choice.